Friday, July 20, 2012

Worth it.

Gah I don't even know what to blog about. I can't describe at all what's going on and I have no idea how to say anything right now.
What I do know is there is a pain for days in my body and it's super-duper uncomfortable and I kind of hate it. But God like teaches me so much stuff through this all.

I literally don't know what to say at all, for one of the few times in my life I don't feel like I have anything to say at all but there's a message inside of me to give to you.

I've asked for this pain to go away, it has gone away on a few occasions with the help of pain killers and a few hours of sleep. But then it finally dawned on me this morning/last night: God doesn't owe it to us to make us comfortable. THE CREATOR of the UNIVERSE doesn't HAVE to do anything for you.
I guess it feels like I'm trying to make God sound like some angry jerk who's too busy for me but that's not it at all.

Seriously I can't squeeze it out of my head what I'm thinking right now so I'm going to speak plainly.

God is sovereign. He saved, made me and has trained me to face tasks. Much like a child who might not want to understand why he can't have an extra cookie, I just want a cookie.
I don't understand why I can't have my cookie (a painless day, a normal feeling, strong day) but I do trust, God has a plan, He is making/made a place where I can have all the cookies I want and the day I have cookies doesn't have to be today.

I understand this, and I want you to as well, I'm unsure to help you understand but please, if you claim Jesus name at all, claim it, love it, live by His name. There is no point in faking a relationship.

God doesn't deserve to be mocked. God will not make your earthly life perfect, or 100% enjoyable but I hold on to my strength every day
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation%2021:4&version=HCSB

there will be a day, when He will wipe away all my tears.


and believe me, there are tears.

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