One Saturday in September

I'll be writing in a linear non linear pattern today. With the the hope and head knowledge that someone will re-write this one day and fix all of my awful grammar and random sentence breaks. I just want to spew information from my brain onto you guys.


The word friend isn't something I throw around everywhere.
Usually if I call you  friend you qualify with
                                                                 _Helping me become stronger, physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, spiritually: just in general our relationship is beneficial to me. Also, to you. Our "friendship" has to benefit you as well, these two things must be joined together; you helping me, and me helping you.
Lean on me, when your not strong. If you do I will lean on you, when I'm not strong.

This may seem like just a random intimate fact about me but for some reason I wanted to preface the fact that basically my bestestestest friend Josh came and stayed with my family and I in Washington for a week and last night he went back to be among the Oklahomans. Last night was a weird night because I didn't go to bed knowing someone was on a bed a few feet from me. Thankfully my parents are home all day because it's Saturday and they aren't working so I do have the luxury of their presence. I am very driven by people. My mom and I discussed planning a winter retreat for our church on the ride home from Sea-Tac. She asked me "what do you want to do at this retreat?" Since I've been so weak lately, I really, truly just enjoy sitting around. I'm not strong enough to do a whole lot especially this week so I had this weak mentality in my mind.  What sounds like a junk load of fun is getting a bunch of people to go hang out at some cabin in the middle of no where with snow falling outside, then sending everyone with energy out into the snow. I would be fine knowing people are near me, the people are coming back to me when they finish up their stuff, I can work on my blog, read my bible, listen to music clearly, I can do almost anything just knowing that I won't be physically alone all day and all night.

I guess that's all I have to write for this morning but I plan on writing more as the day continues as my brothers pick up the house and my parents rush around the house working on some cool programs they run at church.



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I never got around to adding anything more to this post so, that sucks. But since I'm here again I guess it's time for another page!