A Cancerous veil

I'm hiding behind my cancer. I use it as an excuse to dodge hard things in my life. It saved me from being pushed into a hard college trip for me right now and it's let me be lazy for the past almost 6 months. I've had trials it has had some hard parts but I've hid behind his thing expecting everything to be given to me. I hate being lazy, it's not what God wants. I need a challenge when life is easy for me I don't think about hard things in people's life. I haven't thought about how hard it is to be a mom, to have a friend with cancer and complains. I don't know what it's like to be a father who works to provide for his family. I don't have the stress of providing for myself. In this time I've forgotten what it feels to be stressed. I'm thankful to not be stressed, I don't think God wants me to be stressed. He says not to worry about tomorrow in Matthew 6:34. There's so many things I feel like I could and should be doing, I don't have time to be lazy but this cancer tries to consume and make me tired so all I want to do is seem like I'm lazy. Can I turn this visual laziness into something good for my Father? Can I still be His hand when I don't think I'm doing anything? Dear Dad use me, guide me, teach me, let me be your tool even when I'm hidden under boxes and things in a cluttered room. You are supreme, and grand.