I guess I don't really know a whole about what this means to me but I feel like I'm in the wrong world, I wish the world was a little more like the movies, or the movie that plays in my head.
Take away some of these formalaties that we carry in our minds for no reason. Things we want to say but for fear of "offending" someone we can't say it. I understand that we should be respectful, and not insult people but, yatta yatta, I'm side tracked.
I always want to write a long blog so that's why I end up getting lost and confused in what I'm trying to say, but, back on topic.
Oh my gosh I wish I had a video of me, it took me like 5 minutes from the time I said that until the time I started re-write this, so I'm really not in the mood to blog right now, a GREAT friend of mine told me recently that I need to get back to blogging, I need to get my head straight, I'm not really who I want to be and I'm not even who I think I am.
WHY I STARTED WRITING THIS BLOG.
I want to ask a girl out, not one girl specifically right now, but I want to be able to walk to a girl and be like hey, wanna go get a soda sometime? Why can't I do that? I feel like everyone has made it more complicated. Maybe it's actually just me that's over complicating something that isn't really complicated, but I feel like I can't just do that, it has to be coffee, or when I get older drinks, like beer or martini's or whatever, why can't it be simple? Even a picnic in the park isn't the most simple thing, why can't a date be a walk through the park? What is a date more than trying to get more intimate and learn more about the other person? My date idea's are like, huge elaboate picnic, with a hike, and a long day's drive to the beach, fireworks under the sun, hahaha. Maybe just my dream dates are the ones that are out of the world, I just wish there wasn't an expectation to have those incredible things all the time, in a relationship, every date won't be like that, every day won't be like that, maybe every once in awhile and it would be cool to do that, but I want to be able to go out with my future someone and just get a soda and take a walk in the park, that sounds like a fantastic way to learn about eachother. I guess, maybe I should just do it, all it takes it 20 seconds of insane courage right?
SOrry for the scatterbrainedness, it's a sunday after picnic, I just found out a good friend is going to the Philippines in two weeks, so I'm basically brain rushing to go hang out with her. Off to party! =]
